Basically, I consist of a very elaborate flow through chemical system , with tens or hundreds of thousands of chemical reactions taking place simultaneously in an extraordinarily elaborate and only partly understood web, self regulating and self organizing. Mostly water based (although plenty of lipids and bipolar lipid bilayer membranes are involved) with nucleic acids (mainly for information storage and processing, some self regulation functions) and proteins (structural, regulatory, and catalytic functions) running the show. The whole system acts as an entropy pump, decreasing the entropy of the system while increasing the total entropy of the universe. It does this by consuming "food" (more highly organized organic molecules)(yes, I am a heterotroph), and excreting and exhaling "waste" (less organized stuff). Don't worry, the "waste" is "food" for other organisms. Also, there are billions of other living creatures each at least nearly as complex as myself, and even some quasi-living creatures (like genetic parasite sequences) living in me, some freeloaders, but some helpful, some would love to eat me for lunch even. Pretty neat.

Oh, you meant psychologically.

That is harder to answer. I haven't really figured it out myself, lord knows I have tried, but here are some clues.

I used to read a lot. Hungry mind I guess. Ellison, Barker, Vonnegut, Koontz, are all very good. The Vampire Chronicles are good, except for the book about Armand, I never cared much for him. Libraries definitely warped my mind.  I used to read encyclopedias as a kid.

More recently I have discovered Derrick Jensen, first from video clips and articles on the internet, then I decided I had to read some books. The Spell of the Sensuous by David Abram an amazing first chapter where he talks about real life experience. The rest of the book was less awesome, but still interesting. Daniel Quinn's Ishmael series was fantastic. It was one of those I put off reading just because so many people rave about it. And then there is the Hat Man as I call him, Thich Nhat Hanh. He's a Buddhist monk. Got fond of lots of Zen/nature books - the little Zen Companion, The Earth Speaks, Seeing Nature. Go back to those when all the concrete and asphalt gets me down.

I love National Geographic.  I love to travel, especially to national parks.

I love nature - flowers, pretty sunsets, volcanoes, deserts, the ocean, forests, whatever. It makes me very sad to see humans destroying the world. That's why I am for voluntary human extinction. Or involuntary, whichever works.  The Church of Euthanasia is pretty cool.  Thin the herd way down at least people.

I love science, that ties in with nature bit I guess. Like weird science too, like Unwise Microwave Experiments and Bizarre Stuff to Make in Your Kitchen. I like to take stuff apart and see how it works.

I value freedom. Writers like Perlman, HakimBey, and a billion or so zines and websites have good stuff to say about that. Chomsky's good, but he's more about the un-freedon that surrounds us.

So, the net and the postal delivery technician also helped warp my mind.

I have a morbid fascination with morbid stuff - the old Enquirer (before it got obsessed with celebrities) ( Weekly World News is a much better tabloid now), serial killers, America's Most Wanted, stuff like that. I like John Waters movies.

I value my friends, but quality over quantity. Some family members count as friends. My pets (4 cockateels, 1 dog, 4 cats) count as both friends and family.

Music is powerful stuff, it can really reach into the soul and grab it if it is good. You can just look at my Winamp playlist for 1/26/04.

I have always been jealous of people who can play music well, or who learn foreign languages easily, or who can spell.

TV rots the brain. I like a few shows (Simpsons, Monty Python, Star Trek(s), Hercules, Xena, Red Dwarf, The Young Ones, documentaries, old movies, a few others) but I either get busy with something else, or just plain forget to watch them most of the time. Or, since I don't have cable (really, I don't, hard to believe I know), some I can't get.

I'm cheap (frugal) and proud of it.  Free is a good price.  Do you know you can get like 4 or 5 months of free AOhelL?  Or a month of free DVD rentals at Wallmart or 2 weeks from Netflix?  Might as well take the capitalist pigs for all you can I say.

Sleep is very good. Like most of the rest of America, I am chronically sleep deprived. Definitely a night person, don't fully wake up till afternoon.

My thoughts get thick. Hence the abundance of parenthesis, and the abundance of links on this website.

I have never very materialistic. Money is a lousy idea, but I wish I had much much more of it. I spent my life doing what I wanted, interesting things, and not worrying about getting a big pile of cash. I have recently started to worry about not having a big pile of cash. Old age is coming up fast.  But, lately not so much as it looks like everyone may be really poor soon.  If only I could just win the damn lottery.  Then I would buy a modest house with a huge yard with a big fence or for a home base, preferably away from the stinking depressing city, and either a motor home or boat and hit the road or sea, depending on which I bought.

I had to teach myself to love food. Sad isn't it? Finally starting to get fatter though. Yay!!!

I used to be fanatical about keeping the house clean, but between cleaning for a living in Yellowstone and James' health crisis, I have gotten over that particular neurosis.

I like internet tests.  According to the wonderful tests at the Spark I am 51% bastard (more bastard than 72% of the population ha ha ha) and 47% bitch (bitchier than 76% of the population).  According to the sex test I will have sex with 37 people in my life ( I had better get busy I guess).  I am a judge type personality.  By the match test there I am a Pizza Boy (independent, good, taker, sex as opposed to dependent, evil, provider, love I guess, best I can remember it anyway).  I should die on November 16, 2022 at age 60.  52% slutty (more than 66% of the world). Male according to the gender test.  Not Pregnant.  61% unintelegent. 49% greedy (right in the middle).

That's enough clues for today.

If these links go out of date, don't blame me, I didn't invent the internet. It would be polite to let me know though.

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